Update

Do you feel like you sometimes are a bad person? On the 10th of March, Lionel proposed to me and I said yes. It feels surreal that everything has started to fall into place and I cant even begin to express my excitement of starting a family with this man. It seems as though time is our only factor. Beneathe all this candy painted sugar coated world, I keep telling myself that I have to be thankful everyday for the blessing of life. Some days seem so dark, I feel as though I am all alone. My only pet rabbit passed away On Valentines Day this year. The one person who was truly there through thick and thin. I remember when I used to stay in the penthouse in the city, we would all sit by the balcony, stare into the sky, watch the stars and have a cold beer and a cigar. I really miss my August. So many great things happen in August. It brings me many fond thoughts, many happy memories. I also wonder sometimes about the people i used to care alot for, people who used to be important to me, people who meant alot to me. I wonder sometimes if all those years and time spent with that person was just a waste of time for the both of us, but we all know that all stories dont always end up happily ever after. And eventually you find Prince charming and things dont stay the same forever. Change itself is the only thing that is constant. And no, to me it wasnt a waste of time. It was more of, I really enjoyed building all those memories with you. It gave me so much to bring forward to carry on and make myself become who I am today. All my imperfections, countless. I am still glad someone still loves me for who i am and would still share my world. On the 7th of April, I signed my new contract with the Commonwealth bank on a job promotion that i have decided on taking. Tonight, I'm just on the bed, thinking about all the things that have happened in the last 4 months. I would never have thought i would have gotten so far in the last 2 years. God is so good to me. Happiness is self controlled. You either let urself be happy or miserable. You can control ur career, but leave everything else to luck. Kuching, I have missed u so.